I am 29 minutes from kissing 2010 goodbye. And that's all that I'll be kissing. I'm traveling through New Year's Eve on my couch, with the dog as my co-pilot. Not exciting to some...to me, the only thing missing are three beautiful boys to kiss goodnight. (I've stopped thinking maybe I stashed an ADULT male around here and just forgot where).
Reflecting back on the past year, I don't think I'm alone in stating that it was ONE HELL OF A ROUGH YEAR. Unemployment, illness, uncertainty. It was humbling. Not too much that I can say I'll be sad to see be behind me. However.
I was blessed with a wonderful bumper crop of friends this year. Meeting lots and lots of wonderful people, just about in the nick of time (I'm getting teary as I write this). From the beautiful people of Park Lane to those closer to my neighborhood, to my facebook friends and even those that our paths crossed because of a quirk of fate (sg). Friends are important to me for all of the obvious reasons, but also because they help me grow....and then help me heal the wounds that growth spurts can cause. The ones that REALLY get to know me even help me learn and aren't afraid to tell it to me straight. Even when they know I'm trying to fool them AND myself.
I kid you not. I came home from a friend's this evening and made myself look myself in the eyes in the mirror. (It was hard) I'm done with posturing, with taking second best, with not going after what I want. It's REAL living from here on out. I made that promise to myself. Talking the talk only takes me so far down the path - I plan on walking the walk. I learned in 2010, especially in this last month, that I am a formidable actress!
I'm sorry this isn't funny or sexy or provocative or meaningful or thought provoking. I just know that 2010 showed me...all the way up to 10:00 tonight...that I need to wring out every last possible bit of joy out of my life. Tomorrow isn't guaranteed. And yes, I have regrets. I plan on using them to live. REALLY live.
Happy 2011, everyone.
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